Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Ruminating

Ruminating -

Often a journey of enlightenment is a long arduous route. The road is pitted with the bumps of rock and debris of past relationships gone sour. Overgrown roots of familial strife that have grown underground and unseen for such a long time now poke up through the dirt; making footsteps uneven and often tripping you up. Sometimes boughs of green, sinewy vines and low branches that offer flowers and fruit, the kindred of family and friends, can become distracting with their natural beauty but they slow up your pace. Maybe it’s the call of the wildlings, the good time; the just-until-the-right-man/woman-comes-along, that causes you to lose sight of your true goal. It could even be the yearning for companionship, of other travelers along the way that cause you to lend a hand, to stop and assist, that thoroughly gives you reason to neglect your own journey to a brighter, deeper and necessary understanding of self. Some are of good measure and others are dead ends.

The journey is never straight and it is never, ever easy. During the worst of it, a storm may develop from your own frustration, making you turn down a wrong path or seek solace in a place or with a person whose offer of comfort is temporary yet deceiving. Even worse, you look back and re-live the same mistakes; further hindering your progress and entangling your emotions into a seemingly inescapable knot. Once you’re finally on your way, your overzealous attempts to hasten onward, to try and catch up, may only serve to defeat you. At some point, in seeking to remain in the comfort of the past or your desire to idle in the present, you realize that you have missed a turn that held a secret lesson that was meant only for you; that was meant to prepare you, to educate you, to mold you. You might have to retrace your steps or continue on without that lesson; struggling a little harder than necessary.

The journey of enlightenment requires focus, re-focus and steadfast dedication. Your eyes must always behold the prize and you must do all that you can to remain on course. That is to say, that your mistakes must remain in the past; the temptation for temporary comfort in an old familiar place or with an old familiar love or with old familiar habits should be met with a gentle smile of thanks but no thanks as you march, walk or even crawl forward, especially if there is nothing positive to be gained. If you seek new and better things for your life you probably should not fill up your time with the old, the tried and the untrue. Sometimes you must go on alone, especially if those who propose to walk with you are still mired in the muck of their own lives and the study of their own history.

This journey, this life is sacred and is to be cherished. It is to be given your full attention of love and devotion. It is precious and powerful and each and every single second is a divine gift to be accepted with gratitude and shared with those whose only desire is to continue their own journey in the same manner of peace and grace as you are attempting to do with yours.

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